not that im surprised. im rarely surprised at this point. things are not exactly where i want them to be. i should be steering myself towards my expectations, but i’ve become aware of the fact that expecting often leads to disappointment. i just want to be for a while. i guess summer is the best excuse for just that, and its just around the corner..
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i’ve been working in retail for about a year and a half now. im kinda over it.. i love being around fashion and constantly learning new things, that part i don’t want to change. lately i’ve been thinking about possibly/maybe working for a fashion magazine. don’t really know how to go about that though.. i would love to work for Vogue. that would be fucking amazing. help put together articles or research new trends. fuck, i would even take an assistant to a assistant position just to be around/in that world. im pretty sure i’ll need a degree or at least be in school to intern or something like that.. ugh, it always goes back to school. but you see, i want a job like that, right now. i wouldn’t want to make that my career. i would most likely get tired of it and want to move on at some point. see, thats exactly why im not in school right now. i have NO idea what i want to do for the rest of my life. i want to do everything. but to choose something to do for the rest of my life? im much too impulsive for that. lately i’ve been really wanting to travel too. i mean, i’ve always wanted to travel but i want to right now more than ever. i feel like Cali is calling my name. i feel like 2012 needs to be epic. im not saying i have a “new years revolution” or something like that but more like a revolution in general. i need a change of scenery. i need to be out of my comfort zone. i need to live. fuck it, i need to be young.
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of just wanting to leave. go somewhere new and perfect, where no one knows you and leave all the bullshit behind. i need adventure. i want to feel young. first chance i get, i’ll runaway and never look back.
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Through all the bullshit and heartbreak I can’t deny I loved being a teenager. As it stands now, it was the time of my life. If my mind set can change this much in the course of several years I shutter to think where I will stand when Im so old all of this will be a distant memory. If anyone ever ask, please refer to me as a Badass. Not because I got a bunch of tattoo’s, joined a gang, did a bunch of drugs, had sex w. girls I didn’t love, or went to jail for a unjust crime. But because I did shit my own way and gave no fucks as to what anyone cared or thought. I will continue to find my own way and become successful doing the shit I love to do. My spirt will never break and i will keep my Teenage Heart forever.
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Ever since I could remember my mother would tell me “your never happy” or “I can never please you” lol she really did nail it on the head. Im HUNGRY. I’ve always had high standards. I mean, why settle for less than what I deserve. I’ve worked and will continue to work hard for what I want. No ones ever handed me anything for free. If I have to put my blood, sweat, and tears into anything, Im going to walk away w. what I want. I just hope when all this hard work pays off and I do get everything I want, I’ll finally be satisfied.
